There is a beautiful part of my fellow  Queens & Kings that LOVES learning!!! 

How do I know this?!? 

Bc you are reading GSTQ, a Self-Help blog :))))

It's absolutely wonderful that we strive to become better! And work towards higher learning in hopes of becoming the best version of US!!!

Woot.

Woot.

Let's embrace it! ;)

During, my self betterment journey I stumbled across Transcendental Meditation or TM. 

YouTube video after YouTube video...

(Ya got me...

I was in a YouTube Transcendental Meditation worm hole!!!)

All these celebs said they did it, and how it changed things for them, and how much better they were because of it. 

Jerry Seinfeld.

Ellen Degeneres. 

All the smart stars are doing it! And these were people I truly respected! Clearly, it works for them so it must work, right?!?!

Maybe. 

Hmm...

Was I willing to pay $1,000 to know for sure?!

Turns out, no I'm not. 

Got me thinking and asking myself: What exactly was I hoping to gain from the Transcendental Meditation class? 

-clarity

-guidance

-self love

-"my mantra"

-loss of tension

-throat clear

-understanding of within 

-permission to dive deep

-I paid for it so I must be doing it correct

-finally learn the right way to meditate 

-silence my mind

As you know this was my 2nd school in the past couple of months that I strongly considered paying BIG BUCK$ for. 

I googled my tail off for weeks and finally found a bad review. 

(Again)

Always a red flag when there are NO bad reviews. 

Turns out there was an old Blogger website named: "Why I Quit Transcendental Meditation" 

http://whyiquittranscendentalmeditation.blogspot.com/?m=1

Years upon years of comments to follow...

Describing personal experiences...

Cult-like behavior...

One comment in particular hit home.

He heard back that the super duper high price of the TM course was to follow Maharishi’s will. Long after his death...

http://whyiquittranscendentalmeditation.blogspot.com/2009/09/why-i-quit-transcendental-meditation.html?m=1#comment-form

Yikes! 

$1,000 is a lot of $$$. 

For a mantra. A phrase in sanscript.

That is randomly chosen. 

I get they say it's learning a life time practice. And we can go back to any center when we want to get a "touch up." 

Still...

How could they charge so much for something that is for the Universal good? 

And anyone can learn to meditate. 

Why not make it less expensive so it could be shared with the world?!?

Doesn't feel right. 

False Profit. 

Today, at what cost is no cost? Are there certain non-negotiables on your spending for learning? 

Like most yoga classes are $20 BUT you pay $60 for the master class bc you LOVE the teacher! 

Is there a cap for your spiritual spending? 

I have a friend who will not spend more than $200 for a seminar, class, anything. She HAD to put a mental cap on it or else she said she could convince herself of anything! 

Education is very important to me. 

But at what cost do I feel like I am being taken for?!

If we were zillionaires would we do it? 

Maybe. ;)

But my backward fear of us not becoming a zillionaire bc we didn't do it. 

Now, that's not the health of wealth! 

Xoxo

Ps: image is from the interweb...http://falseprofit.bandcamp.com/track/hate-us

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In the past couple of months, two separate times, I have ALMOST paid up to $2,000 for an "expert class." 

By the skin of my teeth I stopped myself. Something inside said this isn't right...

1st school was B School by Marie Forleo. I googled my tail off for days and finally found a bad review. 

(Always a red flag when there are NO bad reviews for someone.)

Turns out there was an old Wordpress  website addressing the topic. 

Years of comments to follow...

Describing the short comings of the school and their experiences...

The creator of the website had died and people kept posting bc it was the only outlet they had! 

http://www.gwynmichael.com/2011/05/11/broke-happy-hot-1-reason-im-not-going-to-b-school/

Yikes.

I read through every single comment and realized Marie Forleo's B School was just NOT for me.  

But...

There was a hook that Marie kept talking about, the fear of Social media. 

It whispered to me...

Then SHOUTED! 

I have this fear real hard!!! 

& I need to get over it!!!

NOW!!!

Hmm...

Was I willing to pay $2,000 to conquer that fear?!

Turned out, No I wouldn't. 

Got me thinking and asking myself: What exactly was I hoping to gain from the class? 

...

-solve my Social media phobia ***

-online success

-hope to feel more comfy online

-Inspiration 

-guidance

-Timeline of checklist of what to do in what order for business success 

-something to do...

-feel a sense of accomplishment

-when I'm in school I feel like I am DOing something ("Poor Dad" thinking.) 

-distraction 

-somewhere to be for 8 weeks

***Big thing was helping me with my social media fears. 

I thought Marie was the answer to what I needed to begin a kick ass online business. 

I wanted a mentor to help me through it. 

I wanted EZ. 

Turns out after much reflection...

What I wanted from Marie Forleo was...

Help to save myself. 

False Profits.

Needless to say...

I shouldn't be looking outside of myself for myself. 

I need to feel good inside then I'll be able to rock it! In ANY "B"usiness

Um...

& why would I go to a "B" School when I HAVE a Business School degree?!?!

Today, are you shopping for answers?!? At what cost?!?!

Looking to false Prophets for advice on Profit?!!  

Hmm...

It's beautiful that we are searching for answers and want to continue learning. Just have to make sure it's the right teacher.

Bc...

What works for some might not work for ya'll ;) 

Xoxox

Ps: Tomorrow, I'll share my second Oh so close encounter to spending $1,000 towards higher learning! 

Pps: 

Found more about the B School topic while writing this post...

A coach who took the class and chooses not to promote it...

http://www.livebrazen.com/2014/02/dont-promote-b-school-make-money-coach/

A lawsuit threatening alumni...

http://www.quora.com/Has-anyone-enrolled-in-Marie-Forleos-b-school-and-been-disappointed-Why

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SELFie Magazine is SELF magazine 

But...

All of the pictures are Selfies! 

Brilliant. 

Am, I right?!?!

Random amazeballs ideas filter into my brain. 

Wish I had hours and hours of time to pursue all of these fun ideas. 

Shame cause just don't have the time! 

Been thinking about where I could send these randoms. 

Where?!?

For who?!?

Someone else who will pursue them?!?

Or at least giggle at the idea of it?!?

But...

WHO?!?!

Maybe...

You ;)

Today, any whackamamy ideas?!?! Ever shaving in the shower and think "I GOT it!!!!" Insert craycray idea that will Revolutionize the world.

Next step...

Share the Eureka!!!!

We are all ears :) 

Xoxo

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My next big trip...

Is WITHIN! 

Boo-yah!!!

Seriously. 

My goal for this year is to be O.K. W/IN.

Destination...

Inner peace. 

Meditation is the next vacay I'm saving for. 

For serious. 

Turns out there's a bunch of meditation schools. And they ain't cheap! Lookn into the BEST place to learn :)

Hoping it could be a great tool for me to settle into myself & be happy where I am now. 

Bc I have learned that I am putting too many things above me. Yikes! 

Thinkn...

Career will follow once I get w/in cool. 

Happiness...

Emotions...

Honor w/in. 

Bc the # of shows performed is not going to make me happy. 

But, me being happy with myself will make me happy. 

Rather than expecting an external shit to make us feel transcendent maybe it's as simple as getting to know ourselves better. To dig deep. To be still. 

To introduce ourselves to the depths of ourselves. 

Stop looking for external validation or sh*t to do rather look within. 

So simple. 

O.K. W/IN...

Then the outer world Will fall into place. 

Meditation is the next stop on my journey! 

Today, Where is your vacay destination?!?!

Maui? Cali? Ohio? Guam?

?!?! Where is your next vaca cay?! 

Are you saving up?!?! Lookn up to check on the weather?! 

Google searches and all?!!

 

Me too! 

Perhaps, my fellow Queens  & Kings will join me on the journey WITHIN?!?

;)

Xoxo

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Comedy God

My goal at the beginning of this year was to become a Comedy God.

Boy...

Girl...

did I fall short! 

Year later, and after looking at my actions this past year I realize that I hadn't done a damn thing towards Comedy God Damn. 

Perplexed me. 

Bc...

If I said I wanted Comedy to be my end goal, Why hadn't I done any Comedy to make this happen?

?!?!?

I journaled. 

Meditated.

Wept.

All to realize that I had a blockage in place for Comedy. 

Ya see, I had been going at it all wrong! 

I was making Comedy my identity. 

My higher power. 

My God. 

Comedy WAS my God. 

This is very unhealthy. 

As we know nothing should be our higher power. 

But...

the higher power in all of us. 

By constantly putting Comedy on a pedestal. That I can't obtain. 

Reach. Or BE. 

I am Always falling short. Meanwhile, my hopes were to ultimately be accepted. 

This was a big disconnect. 

Nothing is my God. 

Rather...

No thing is my God. 

Today, what is your Higher Power? Are you placing things higher than your beautiful perfect self?!? Your identity is No thing. Your identity is the energy that flows through your veins. 

I am a Comedian bc I so choose. 

As a beautiful, evolved, fully realized being. 

No thing will make me whole. 

Although, I can have fun with many funny things ;) 

Xoxo

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